I'm kind of lost right now...
Posted 05-22-2010 at 02:13 PM by Josh
Drugs and alcohol are my only comfort. Everyone I have ever known has betrayed me. Terribly as well as horribly. I like making new friends because at least I can count on them as the only person in my life who hasn't betrayed me... And yet I expect it to happen with them too,
Sigh. Being suicidal is for idiots. I am not, nor have I been. It's just kind of a reckless apathy that overtakes me. Consequences be damned. If I had had that mindset my whole life things would have been better. Turned out better. Ha! While writing this I was thinking to myself about how this sounds like a suicide note. Ha. Man I'm bad at this stuff. Oh well. Feels better to write it down for some reason.
Sigh. Being suicidal is for idiots. I am not, nor have I been. It's just kind of a reckless apathy that overtakes me. Consequences be damned. If I had had that mindset my whole life things would have been better. Turned out better. Ha! While writing this I was thinking to myself about how this sounds like a suicide note. Ha. Man I'm bad at this stuff. Oh well. Feels better to write it down for some reason.
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I assume you mean irl people since I haven't betrayed you.
Sorry to hear things are down for you right now, I hope things will get better for you. Cheer up, you're a good person and sound long over due to catch a break.Posted 08-16-2010 at 04:32 AM by Phyrexial 
